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July 15, 2008

How many times have I told myself not to assume anything?

One of my mottos used to be “Expect the worst but hope for the best”. But somehow I forgot that one.

I was happy with the way things were going. And now I’m sad because everything’s back to the way they used to be…

I thought that this time, everything will happen according to my plan. And then in an instant, after that one occasion, things went awry.

Oh well, I guess I just have to decide if I wanted to continue with my plan which may translate to a lot of difficult times but hopefully rewarding ending (which is a little doubtful) or move on…

Right now, I’m all for moving on…

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Moving on and Growing up

March 20, 2008

No matter how old or mature we are or how much we think we can handle life, an event will occur that will make us realize that we are not as ready as we think to face the world. That sometimes, the things that we want to do without are the things that we’re gonna miss. We’ll also realize the importance of the people around us. Those people who did their best to shield us from as much unpleasantness as possible. We’ll realize the pain that they go through when we’re put in the situation where they were before. Then, we’ll realize that our life then is not as bad as we thought. That if we can do something to make everything go back to the way they were, we would ‘ve done it in an instant.

Growing up is hard. If only we can stay innocent of what the world out there is really like. If only we can stay in our safe haven for the rest of our lives. Some may say that being in your comfort zone will not allow you to live your life to the fullest. You’ll not see how far you can go or how much you can endure or how great you can be. And I agree. You can only grow when you’re put in a situation where you’ll have to do something new. Something that you’ve never done before. Something that will test you. But sometimes, I wish that I still have the things that made a certain aspect of my life easier. The things that I didn’t fully appreciate back then. The things that I terribly miss right now.

I know this is just a phase and when the smoke clears and the dust settles down, you’ll see me standing at the center of the field. Battered and bloody but with a great big smile on my face.

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Now we know why…

December 9, 2007

DOTA. Ang favorite bonding activity ng SWOT FE ngaun. Hindi lahat nagdodota pero majority ay makikita mo sa GameFrog in Metrowalk tuwing lunch[majority of us] at after office hours [yung iba one game lang, pero kami atleast 2.hahaha]. I can’t remeber kung kelan nagStart magDOTA ang mga girls. Ang natatandaan ko lang isang araw nagyaya si Gemma na maglaro kasi curious sya kung bakit adik ang SWOT boys dito. And now she knows. Adik na din kasi sya. Wehehe.

 Honestly, I think the main reason why we enjoy DOTA so much is because of the people we play it with. I’ve played DOTA before with my other friends. But I think that it’s more enjoyable when you hear us shouting “No, No, No…back na ko..wag mo ko papatayin please…” and then we’re dead. Hindi na naawa. Hmmp…Hehe.

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Wish ko lang

December 2, 2007

Have you ever experienced being tempted to grab something you really really wanted but had to hold back because it's not yours? That it belongs to someone else and you know that person does not deserve to lose something so valuable? And you know that no matter how much you convince yourself that you're ok without it, you can't help but steal another glance and wish that it was you holding it in her arms?

 We can't have everything we want but I would be soooo much happier if I can have my own "it."

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Everything’s gonna be alright

November 30, 2007

How do you say goodbye when you’re not yet ready to let go?

How do you collect all the wonderful memories when you don’t have enough time to make them?

How do you act as if everything’s normal because you can’t let anybody know that it’s not?

How do you laugh while you’re hurting inside?

How do you go on living when it feels like you’re dying inside?

 

You cry.

You whine.

You eat out.

You go shopping.

You blog.

You cry some more.

Sooner or later, you’ll be fine.

It sucks sometimes. But, hey, that’s life.

 

Just don’t forget, if you think you can’t take it anymore.

Remember that I’m here. We’ll cry together.

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